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During one of my office breaks I started googling and thought of having some coffee. The coffee tasted/smelt bad while the googling was fun! I read about Nicola Tesla and his phobia and then I went on to read about OCD and went further to read about other phobias. I’ve had the fear of heights all my life. I still feel my knees go weak when I stand at an altitude and yet I like that weird feeling. I had never been on any rides my whole life(partly because amma was afraid) but always imagined myself going on crazy rides. I can’t seem to say No to myself. I went to Busch Gardens recently and boy were the rides crazy or what! It was a fun first time and it kind of reminded me of this dream that continues to haunt me. Now in these dreams of mine I am riding a single wheel cycle(unicycle I think its called, like the ones that the joker rides in the circuses) and its so high up that I cant seem to fall off but keep getting the feeling that I will. The worst part is I can’t see the ground. Another such dream is when I’m walking on stilts, again, like the joker. Why I keep imagining myself as one, I don’t know ;) Does it have any meaning, maybe.

 

Hipity dipity dock!

 

Pappa

It's been 4 years now Pappa...
-Anu

Nostalgia...

Feels like I'm at home with Muthachan doing the pooja and this song is playing in the background... All the kids singing along...

Another one that Amma used to sing for me often...

Licensed!

I always feel a sense of freedom when i get my license. This is my 3rd(2wheeler n 4 wheeler in India b4 this one here) and i got mine today... When i got here i wanted it so badly that i drove my colleagues crazy making them prepare for the written n taking the drug test n stuff and finally one of them returned to India without the license and the other got called back. So i kinda took it easy and then when i had to go for the skill test i got a car n drove off to Delaware and the 2nd time didnt stop at the stop sign in the test n flunked. This time i decided i should get it over with and got it over with at a shot... i dont need to carry my passport around for id anymore :D
So i get back home sip some masala adrak chai and feel good about myself...

U ;)

I had a dream last night and it had me n you in it…

I had a floating glimpse of a third someone

I looked as far as I could through the maze and found none

It was my conscience calling out to me, reaching out from within

I asked her, what might be it

And she smiled and said, “you my dear, it is you”.

As I further held the hand of my loved one I felt a tug at the end of my endlessly long robe

I looked back to see an angelic child looking up at me

She felt as light as a feather as I lifted her and swung her around in playful glee

The hunger buried inside erupted at that instant

And its with that hunger that I seek you now…

 

 

 

Sweet thoughts...

And so it comes to pass…

What a ride its been and what a ride its gonna be… Looking forward to every moment… Shwetal gave me good news – she’s expecting – I even saw the baby’s pics!!! She’s going through the morning sickness part and isn’t really enjoying it…

I had a funnnnfull special trip to LA 2 weeks back! And boy, was it invigorating or what! It was a multitude of emotions gushing through my very core as I passed every minute and the truth slowly sunk in… I’m engaged – at a point of time when I least expected to be and to a person I had no clue about 2 months back!!! How awesomely weird is that. Sometime back I had started thinking to myself about how different it would be if I knew the person I was going to live with for the rest of my life and what if I ended up marrying someone completely new… I know what that feels like now ;) I know I know what most will say – that’s it’s a phase and this too shall pass… but who said you shouldn’t enjoy being treated like a princess. I enjoy being spoilt :D and I hope ill be spoilt rotten… Is it really an arranged marriage? Well cause though Amma went ahead with the formalities she hasn’t really seen the guy… Anyways everyone has their own lil story… I’m on another trip to Vegas to celebrate this country’s independence day… I might even get hooked there ;) ‘what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas’ right?

On another front Satyam isn’t doing that bad, so its kinda a breather for now. Appraisals happened – just for the heck of it. Not expecting too much outta that for sure. Driving test around the corner. Studies happening! So much to do, so lil time…

I want to get myself a cycle, pack a lil basket and go off to patapsco and spend sometime thinking… About what was and what is… About the small things that changed and those that haven’t… About the ones that matter and those only… How I’ve changed and how its made me better… About the ones that have contributed to bringing about this change…

And lastly curl up and dream a bit…